Month: March 2015

Any runner who tells you that they dont care about their time or Its just a training run or they dont need a DNF is a fucking liar.
Honestly.
Yes my full last week was to get ready for my 50k in a couple weeks, which is right before my 24 Hour.
And yes, I’m going to switch gears from endurance to speed after that and focus on attempting to BQ in the fall.
BUT –
I care.
I care how I did and how I didnt do.
Of course Im glad I came in under 5. This is my third time running this race. I hate this race. And they keep changing the course and making it worse than it was the year before. Hills – ghettos – mudd – stupid.
There was even a point on a turn around where I just stopped and looked at the mile marker (20) and wasnt sure I was going in the right direction. It was the worst feeling.
Part of me was glad we got rained on the entire time. Its almost as if Im determined to find new ways to punish myself…I dont know. Some runners were wrapped in plastic or whatever. I had no interest in this. I gave no meaning to the word soggy. I even took my coat off midway through and just kept going. 4:45 Oh well. Its about an hour too slow for Boston, and 20 minutes slower than my PR.
I do know though, that from the minute I parked until I got back in my car, I covered over 50k in under 6 hours which brings my expectations for NorthFace to a whole new level.
Again – Im thinking I might PR.
I just ordered TailWind which I have been meaning to do forever and a half. Better late than never I guess.
So new shoes and new fuel w out training. Its almost like I’m trying to sabotage myself?
Not really.
I just want to do well.
It all amounts to nothing really. But I really do want to kill this race. This is the one that I wrecked my knee on last year.
Currently both knees are jacked up – not because of running (which is a common false assumption) but because of non-run-related occurrences — one involved a wet floor in a grocery store – anyways – my knees are so bruised and scarred its nasty. Dont look. Thank God for pantyhose. As if.
Well that is a lot or rambling for one night. One of my midgets is beside me in bed writing too. You know what they say about the apple falling from the tree and all….
I wish my boys ran. At least my dog runs. Speaking of dogs, I miss Poydras so much.
OK really this has ended 5 or 6 times already.
Spin and barre in the am tomorrow. Not sure about Thursday, other than its supposed to be nearly tropical outside, so Im likely to take a long run – then Friday my barre instructor is going to hit he trail with me.
My life is in an odd place – where I dont know where Im going or what the point is – but I feel oddly excited – sort of like that Christmas Eve feeling when you look wicked forward to the next day, but dont want the excitement to end? Sorry world for being so hard to tag down, a bit rude and honest with a touch of asshole.
And thank you world for loving me anyway…old friends and new – bonus surprise friends etc xoxoxo
~K~

Last year I had RnR DC Full, ATR24 and Northface 50k lined up back to back, to officially get #MarathonManiac status. I completed the first two, but it didnt work out with my DNF ala Knee Injury via fall at NorthFace. So, Im trying again.

Today I finished the first of the three at full #7, where I didnt PR or even make my goal, but at least I feel fine afterwards and I did a sub 5. The schedules for the ATR24 and NF50k are actually swip-swapped this year, which is ideal, because, so long as I dont fall and wreck myself, I can use the 50k as a training run for the 24, which I plan to accomplish at least 100k, if not 75 miles – rather than the 50 miles I did last year.

It rained on us the entire time today, there were tons of puddles, including mudd, and the course just gets worse and worse every year with some strategic placement of every possible hill in the city of DC, but always up, and never down…why the hell could we not have been doing in the other direction!!?

I didnt come home to a card or flowers – but I did get wine, chocolate and best of all, pizza 😉
Oh, and Epsom salt for a bath later!! (oh and he went to the grocery store for me so double win)
Even though I knew good and well he couldnt come today, as he had too much going on with the kids etc, part of me is always looking for him – its a personality flaw. I will notice family members and significant others and the efforts they go though to show their love. He has probably come to half my races, at least half of the big ones, and he has done some pretty thoughtful things to be supportive – so I cant take that away.
I also look at all the supporters, I always do and try to say thanks but today I really felt so blessed by them all, both the staff and spectators and Im thankful for them – they are the best part of the race.

I prefer a trail over a street race any day but that one piece, the cheering fans and their funny signs and things they do, is missing on the trail. In cities sometimes the residents sit on their porches with music or they serve coffee and/or beer etc – it is so cute and nice. Some of today’s highlights included, the Presidents from the National’s Stadium, a guy in bunny pjs, an amazing drumming band under a bridge (what an unmatchable sound they made), the Incredibles Guy who always has great music; and lots of great bands, and lots of clever Pi related signs today (3/14/15).

I will say in closing that all DC races suck logistically and are so enjoyable in terms of finding our car or getting out of the darn city, whether youre braving the roads or the metro, that I always tell myself I’ll never do it again – and yet, I do.

When this series is over, I will have the entire summer to switch from ultra-mode to speed-mode in hopes of closing out the year with a BQ at my final 2015 race, a full in NY in October. I’d like to be as far-reaching with my personal and spiritual goals as I am with my running-goals in hoping to be so comfortable and confident with myself that I come to a peaceful resolution in my ability to react to things that are out of my control AND make what might be a huge career change as well.

We will see…